Stephanie Hollman is able to reclaim her life again.
Throughout Wednesday’s episode of The Actual Housewives of Dallas, Hollman, together with Mary Brittingham and D’Andra Simmons, participated in a sweat lodge, the place the women engaged in bodily and emotional therapeutic and cleaning.
“I’m very grateful to be here,” mentioned Hollman, 38. “I don’t know, I feel like I’m just searching right now, honestly … for more happiness maybe, within myself. That’s what my intention is — just to release a little bit.”
“I have felt very depressed on this trip,” she advised cameras. “I’m hoping to release my shame of being back on antidepressants and to not have it all figured out. I just want to reclaim my life.”
Final week, Hollman acquired candid together with her emotions about LeeAnne Locken‘s determination to talk brazenly about her painful historical past, together with her previous suicide try.
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“I feel a little off on this trip,” Hollman advised Brandi Redmond whereas on a gaggle journey to Mexico. “I don’t know why, I’m going to be honest. I feel like you’re a security blanket for me. It was really heavy yesterday, I’m not going to lie. Like with LeAnne and her story, that s— is in my head and I start thinking about it. It’s f—– up.”
Visibly upset, Hollman advised cameras, “Every 30 seconds someone commits suicide and it’s something you just don’t talk about because you’re having a bad day. I do feel triggered by it. It’s very depressing. It’s a sensitive topic for me. It makes me think about my own suicide attempt and depression, and I don’t like that.”
In 2018, the mom of two tearfully revealed that she tried suicide when she was 22.
“I was with a guy who didn’t make me feel like a worthy person,” Hollman mentioned. “I never felt pretty enough, I never felt good enough. I was always judged. We broke up and it was like, I lost my friends. And I just couldn’t handle it.”
“I remember going to the bathroom and finding a bottle of pills. And I remember taking them all, laying down in my bed,” she recalled. “My mom was home, so I stumbled into her room and told her what I had done, and then she called the ambulance.”
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When requested by a producer why Hollman feels the necessity to placed on a contented face and conceal what’s truly happening, she was hesitant to reply.
“Because people don’t like to be around people who don’t make them feel good,” she mentioned. “Nobody would want to be my friend if I was honest about what I deal with. Like, all the time. I wouldn’t have any friends.”
Actual Housewives of Dallas airs Wednesdays (9 p.m. ET) on Bravo.
When you or somebody is contemplating suicide, please contact the Nationwide Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), textual content “home” to the Disaster Textual content Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.