“Dog the Bounty Hunter” revealed late spouse Beth Chapman‘s last needs forward of her Colorado memorial on Saturday.
“I’ve never done ashes in my life, and that’s what she wanted. And then she wants me to do it and put in the same thing and I guess put on the fireplace or something. This is the most morbid stuff,” the 66-year-old actuality star instructed “Entertainment Tonight” in a brand new interview whereas sitting subsequent to a pink field containing Beth’s ashes.
“She said, ‘Scatter some, leave some on the fireplace,’” he added. “Of course, when I go to heaven, she wants me in the box with her. Not my will.”
Beth, 51, died about two weeks in the past in Hawaii after a battle with throat most cancers, and the stress of her passing has taken a bodily toll on Canine, inflicting him to drop practically 20 kilos.
“I’ve lost 17 pounds in about two weeks. I need to bulk up again. But I can’t eat. Two bites, I’m full,” he shared. “So I gotta force-feed myself like I force-fed her.”
He additionally stated that he nonetheless feels as if Beth is by his aspect.
“I was going to do all the scattering … and then I looked at it and thought, ‘I’m not going to throw you away! I just throw you away and start over?’ I can’t do that. So right now … I haven’t gotten past the place where I’m still putting a pillow where she was and covering it up like the jailhouse escape,” he stated. “And then I wake up in the middle of the night and see her and it doesn’t register that [it] ain’t her. I’m still there.”
Although the 66-year-old stated he’d by no means “commit suicide,” he revealed he’d be able to go if his time have been to come back sooner quite than later.
“I am ready now to go,” he stated, however added, “Beth was never ready.”